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PONDERING CORE ESSENCE
NUMENON |
I was sad and depressed as the one-year anniversary of Ollie's untimely death arrived. I cannot drive that stretch of East Main Street or walk around the neighborhood without missing him and feeling guilty for his pain in his last moments. I think of him daily, and almost always fondly, but this anniversary had gotten under my skin. So, on August 1, it wasn't too hot before work and I went on an Ollie Walk. His need to get outside every day, regardless of the weather, over the years had helped me recover from back ailments and had restored my health. With the heat of summer, I had gotten away from these daily walks, and I've probably added a few pounds and points to my blood pressure. It was time to take back control and continue to honor his memory. Half an hour later, I felt much better. The next day, I did the same, and I am consciously trying to get these extra walks in, at least when it's not too hot. Thanks, Ollie. I still miss you, but you're still a good boy! I think I've also decided that I need to sell Numenon (the boat). I've barely been able to use her since the fall of 2019. She is falling into disrepair on her trailer, which in itself needs to be replaced. I may be overly particular about what the right trailer for her is, and the pandemic may have created some supply chain havoc along the way, but I simply cannot find a replacement trailer. With zero trust in her current trailer, I am not going to use her without a new support system; and does it make sense to dump five grand or more into a 20-year old boat that will be only lightly used (at best) for the foreseeable future? Meanwhile, amybaby22 might be a little small for future plans on Casco Bay, but she's available for freshwater use, at which she's proven able. Numenon's current state is clearly a source of stress for me, and I don't have the time or wherewithal to address her needs, never mind actually use her. Maybe it's time to let her go. But damn, she has been good to me, and she too will be missed. Pondering the questions of core essence and finding meaning in unexpected ways
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